I'm a bum, by Muffin Top April 30 2010

so yeah, how come it's so hard just to do something as simple as log onto a blog every day and keep track of stuff? So, May is a new month. I want to lose 8 pounds of fat by the end of May (two pounds a week isn't bad, right?) but i'm not going to focus on the poundage. I'm going to focus on the inches and how I look in those jeans and that bikini.

I've GAINED fat since I started this blog, I think. lame. So that's it, every day, when I'm on the train home, I'll write on this blog. And a couple more things-
regular mini-meals every three hours- I realized, as I scarfed down not one but TWO snickers bars on the train last night (and I've been binge eating a lot lately) that I starve myself all day cause I don't feel hungry, then I eat a TON at night. So, I think no food after 10 pm (I work till 9 and don't get home till 930 so that gives me 30 min to eat a healthy snack).
Measure myself every week to see if there's any progress.
Maybe I should go on the IC diet!!!!

Okay, today so far, at noon, I had a smoothie with orange juice, protein powder, frozen fruit, and anti-oxidant mix. (delicious!)
And I took an hour long walk on the beach with my dogs, complete with stretches for my neck which has been out of wack since that dude fell asleep on the highway and hit me going 90 causing my car to hit a light pole and roll four times. ouch.
anyways yeah. I'll log back on tonight to say what else I did. HOpe I have time for a surf today, shoulda gone this morning but felt like a narcoleptic s thought a walk would wake me better.

Ooh measurements:
waist- smallest part 2 inches above my belly button : 27 inches
waist- biggest part an inch bellow my bell button: 30.5 inches
hips-36
butt- biggest part: 38
right thigh:21
left thigh: 21
bust at the nipples: 34.5 (I'm curious to see if it will shrink...)

CQ I"m sorry I bummed out on this again, I'm not even goin to tell you Iwrote again because I want a couple of day of consistency under my belt before I claim to be back on the program...

Okay- lunch- this fake meat stuff my neighbor gave me with peppers and onions- yum!
dinner- two open faced pb and j sandwiches, double yum!
and my student just gave me this massive piece of chocolate cake- I ate a third of it. I decided no more chocolate starting tomorrow
one more piece of cake and I'm about to make myself a caprese salad. tomorrow, it begins...really

4/21/10 CQ's Update

I have not been doing well. Been not doing well pain wise. Also, I had stopped eating the special diet and went kind of wild. Gained back more than half of what I lost. Guess I'm glad its not quite all of it I suppose!

Went to the doctor today. He wants me to go back on the diet, and start taking the medication again. I am going to oblige for a few more months, to give it a better chance to work. He said it can take 3 months for the meds to work.

I will likely be losing weight again. As, I won't be able to eat a whole lot of the things that are bad for me, and my medication schedule requires me to take it 3 times a day 1 hour before eating or two hours after. Finding time to eat is a lot more difficult than one might think with that regimine. No snacking pretty much.

Anyhow, thats it for now.

4/15/10 - CQs Measurements

Waist 31.5
Abdomen 37.5
Left Arm 13
Right Arm 12/75
Left Leg 24.5
Right Leg 26

Ouch.

4/12/10 - CQs Update... Uh oh...

Yup. Uh oh.

I have to report that I am not longer on the diet for people with IC because my new doctor does not think I have it, and well, it didn't seem to help with my pain at all.

So, I have gone back to eating processed food, and ta da! Gained atleast 5 pounds back. Also, I think I made the mistake of 'making up for lost time' so to say.

In my defense.. I must add that temporarily, I did start taking the medication again that I gained a bunch of weight on. I took it for atleast a week. And I discovered something interesting. That medication gives me an insane, almost uncontrolable desire to eat. On it, I just get this urge to eat ALLLLLL the time. I couldn't stop. I feel hungrey all the time on it. I know, I know, I really ought to ultimately have sort of control. Eating everything in sight is a behavior. I just don't know what to say. I am disappointed in myself.

I have since stopped taking it. No wonder I gained so my frekking weight when I was on it nearly a year.

I have been trying to find my seamstress tape measure. I think you are right. Measuring can show a more meaningful progress than weight alone. I'll get one soon if I can't find mine.