Been climbing, doing yoga, and started going for 30-40 minute walks a couple times a week. A PT recommended to me that I walk for half and hour a day, or atleast 15 minutes. I haven't exactly done that, but I have started doing some walking.
I competed in a rock climbing competition last week. I ranked 23 out of about 200 for my division! Woot! The beau and I went for a rock hopping trip a few weekends ago, and have gone hiking once. Have a plan to go for a top roping trip May 15 at Mt. Diablo with some friends. I was supposed to go kayaking last weekend, but couldn't get myself out of bed at 7 a.m. Also, I had competed, doing 8 climbs the evening before, so I was a bit tired.
Also, I've gotten to about 138.5 or so, which I haven't been in a long time. I'm determined to keep losing weight and get in better shape.
I've been drinking more water, and eating more vegetables.
Hooraaaaaayy SUN!
Tuesday, April 19, 2011
Wednesday, April 6, 2011
4/6/11 Cindalu
Monday I did yoga for an hour then climbed for 2 hours. Tuesday I went hiking for an hour and a half or so. Wednesday I will go do yoga again. I think I am building some muscle. Haven't lost any weight so far this week. Also, been eating chocolate chips for the past few days. Not good!
I am going to try and opt for the stovestop chocolate pudding made from almond milk instead. I only put 2 tablespoons of sugar in the whole thing. Much better. And lowfat.
Exercise is exhausting!
On the 15th I am going to compete in a climbing competition.
I am going to try and opt for the stovestop chocolate pudding made from almond milk instead. I only put 2 tablespoons of sugar in the whole thing. Much better. And lowfat.
Exercise is exhausting!
On the 15th I am going to compete in a climbing competition.
Thursday, March 31, 2011
3/31/11 Cindalu
Went and did yoga yesterday. The day before I went climbing. Went to the gym 3 times this week. Yay!
Monday, March 28, 2011
3/29/11 Cindalu
139.4!!!
I did it!
I am officially back in the 130's. Woooooot!
I haven't been there in about nearly 3 years.
What I have been doing is eating less, and not snacking all day.
I went climbing twice last week. Irritated my muscles and nerves on the second time though unfortunately. Was able to kind of stretch things out. Not 100% back to where I was, but some better. If I have time today, I am going to take a yoga class this evening after I take my math exam. I will probably do some kind of activity after that. Maybe some cardio of some sort.
I like your idea about setting one goal a month. I think that is pretty realistic. More likely to become a real part of your life. That's awesome!
I did it!
I am officially back in the 130's. Woooooot!
I haven't been there in about nearly 3 years.
What I have been doing is eating less, and not snacking all day.
I went climbing twice last week. Irritated my muscles and nerves on the second time though unfortunately. Was able to kind of stretch things out. Not 100% back to where I was, but some better. If I have time today, I am going to take a yoga class this evening after I take my math exam. I will probably do some kind of activity after that. Maybe some cardio of some sort.
I like your idea about setting one goal a month. I think that is pretty realistic. More likely to become a real part of your life. That's awesome!
Saturday, March 26, 2011
MT 3/27
Ms. Cindalu, I’m so sorry I haven’t been following or posting on the blog!!!! I just read all of your past posts. It sounds like things have been rough. I’m not sure what to tell you about your boy. Maybe you should just tell him that what he’s saying to you isn’t big news, it doesn’t make you feel good or motivate you, so maybe he should keep it to himself for a while?
Hon, you’re amazing, and you ARE doing stuff with your life. I’m so amazed that you’ve been able to write a whole book!!!!! Keep at it! Did you ever hear back from the climbing gym about that job? Maybe you should consider moving here ;)
As for me, I’ve got 5 months until my 30th birthday. I’ve set up a little program for myself- every month I focus on a different goal- I want these to be life goals that I keep forever. I’ve often read that a new goal takes a month to develop into a habit, and I recently read that it’s best to focus on only one goal at a time.
So I’ve got five months. Month 1- no eating after 8pm. No matter what. After this month, I can eat after 8pm for VERY special social occasions, but that’s it. And I want to keep this goal for the rest of my life.
Month 2- clean/organize for 15 minutes every morning after I get up and every night before I sleep. I think this will make my life more peaceful.
I think for month 3 I will write when I wake up in the morning- just enough to clear my head.
Month 4, I think stretching when I wake up and before I go to bed.
I forgot what I was going to do for month five! I’m sure I’ll remember though.
Anyways, I’ve been doing pretty good on food lately, not so good on exercise because I’m still waiting for this stupid weather to clear up. Bleh.
And not eating after 8pm seems to be making a difference! I am sleeping better and waking up more refreshed, and I’m sure I’ve cut my calorie consumption by a third haha (that may not last long as I’ll probably start eating more during the day since I’m not eating at night)
Okay, gotta go.
Love ya Cindalu, keep me updated and I’ll try to get on here more.
Hon, you’re amazing, and you ARE doing stuff with your life. I’m so amazed that you’ve been able to write a whole book!!!!! Keep at it! Did you ever hear back from the climbing gym about that job? Maybe you should consider moving here ;)
As for me, I’ve got 5 months until my 30th birthday. I’ve set up a little program for myself- every month I focus on a different goal- I want these to be life goals that I keep forever. I’ve often read that a new goal takes a month to develop into a habit, and I recently read that it’s best to focus on only one goal at a time.
So I’ve got five months. Month 1- no eating after 8pm. No matter what. After this month, I can eat after 8pm for VERY special social occasions, but that’s it. And I want to keep this goal for the rest of my life.
Month 2- clean/organize for 15 minutes every morning after I get up and every night before I sleep. I think this will make my life more peaceful.
I think for month 3 I will write when I wake up in the morning- just enough to clear my head.
Month 4, I think stretching when I wake up and before I go to bed.
I forgot what I was going to do for month five! I’m sure I’ll remember though.
Anyways, I’ve been doing pretty good on food lately, not so good on exercise because I’m still waiting for this stupid weather to clear up. Bleh.
And not eating after 8pm seems to be making a difference! I am sleeping better and waking up more refreshed, and I’m sure I’ve cut my calorie consumption by a third haha (that may not last long as I’ll probably start eating more during the day since I’m not eating at night)
Okay, gotta go.
Love ya Cindalu, keep me updated and I’ll try to get on here more.
3/26/11 Cindalu
Went climbing a couple times this week. Did pretty kick ass! Nearly completed a V3. I was just starting those back when I was climbing all the time. Also, I did a 5.10c today, and didn't fall except for the reach for the finishing rock.. which I don't think really counts.
Also, I've been a steady 141. Just 2 pounds to go and I'll be back in the 130's, which would be awesome!
Today I had a small breakfast. I piece of sourdough toast, and half and orange from the tree in the yard (yum. atleast something is happy about all this rain).
Lunch was a crepe from a cafe and some earl grey tea w/ cream. I think I may start making crepes at home again. Dinner was chicken noodle soup, made from scratch, including the homemade noodles. Today is what I consider a decent way to eat.
I'm going grocery shopping tomorrow. Hopefully I am able to put together some healthy dinners and snacks.
Also, I've been a steady 141. Just 2 pounds to go and I'll be back in the 130's, which would be awesome!
Today I had a small breakfast. I piece of sourdough toast, and half and orange from the tree in the yard (yum. atleast something is happy about all this rain).
Lunch was a crepe from a cafe and some earl grey tea w/ cream. I think I may start making crepes at home again. Dinner was chicken noodle soup, made from scratch, including the homemade noodles. Today is what I consider a decent way to eat.
I'm going grocery shopping tomorrow. Hopefully I am able to put together some healthy dinners and snacks.
Sunday, March 20, 2011
3/20/2011 Cindalu
I haven't gotten any exericize really since I last posted. Had the procedure done, and then wasn't feeling well for the next week and a half.
Eric has mentioned to me that I am not motivated to do active things anymore. That it makes him not motivated when I am not motivated.
I feel like he doesn't understand how much physical pain I have been in for the past year. I feel like he doesn't have the ability to empathize.
I have lost 15 pounds in the past 6 months. That is a miracle considering the circumstances. Of course, that isn't acknowledged. Only the fact that I should lose 10-20 more pounds in his opinion is mentioned. If I lost 20 pounds, I would weigh what I did when I was 14 years old. F*ing ridiculous.
Sure, I want to lose some weight. I'd like to lower my body fat percentage. I'm not the thinnest girl in the world. Being nagged and being told I have stomach fat is not the way to motivate me. When he had stomach fat I didn't once try and make him feel bad about it.
He later apologized saying its not about weight, but just being healthy. Leading an active life. That it concerns him that I am not motivated most of the time.
He tells me I am not trying to find alternative things that I can do that don't cause me pain. The only thing I can do in moderation is walk. And because it rains, right now it would have to be on the treadmill. Which is booooooooooooring.
The whole thing I learned about making health a lifestyle is keeping it fun. It is not fun to be in a gym on a treadmill. I refuse to force myself to do something so unfurfilling. If its not fun, I am not going to stick with it. I don't believe in being a gym rat. Repetitive exercise; such as being on an eliptical, or lifting weights on an track in an unergonomic way (which is how the machines are built) is not what human bodies were meant to do.
I boulder some, but it does sometimes cause me pain. Or on my more painful days I don't feel like bothering with it. And I don't particularly like the bouldering gym near us because the route setters don't typically plot out routes using the style I like. They want brutal stregnth more than making it possible to get up a route with any sort of technique. It's boring for me. I want to go outside and climb. It's raining. I liked top roping a lot. However, the last time I went I screwed myself over by falling to many damn times and pissed off my nerve via the harness.
I don't have a job and I don't know what I need to do about it. I rally shouldn't have a job where I have to sit all day long. I need something close to home so I don't have to commute far, and something where I can be on my feet more often than not. I've been thinking about applying at Starbucks because I really just want a part time job that gives me health insurance. No one seems to be supportive of this, other than Eric. Sure, I COULD probably do a lot better. Jobs that require me to use my mind though at things I am skilled at also require me to sit down most of the time.
Eric and I had talked about getting married so that he could get health insurance benefits. He now says he doesn't ever want to get married again, and that I 'can't keep a job more than a month.' Which isn't exactly true. I quit my first job, that I had been at 2 years. And it was for valid reasons. They weren't paying me in a timely manner, and they wanted me to pick between my doctor appointments and my job. So I chose my dr. appointments. The second job I quit after a week because it wasn't a good fit for me. And the last job required me to commute for nearly 3 hours a day, which wasn't good for my pain level. Again, no empathy on his part.
I'm just getting really depressed. I don't know what I am doing with myself. I am worried about my future.
I used to love to be outside doing active things. Perhaps I will feel better when the sun comes out again. I felt awesome when I was climbing all the time, and hiking, kayaking.
One thing I have been doing pretty regularly is yoga. It's not enough in Eric's opinion. Which I am starting to resent him for. Pardon me for not wanting to spend 3 hours at the gym with him every time we go.
Some people with my disorder aren't able to do any form of exercise. I just feel lucky that on most days now I can move my positioning on the couch and not be in excruciating pain.
Sometimes I miss the days when I lived by myself in a studio apartment. I had a good paying job, and had lots of money I could play with. I could come home and didn't have someone bitching at me about what I did or didn't do.
I am thinking about taking a weekend vacation to San Diego, where I hear it is warm and sunny.
Because the pain doctor thinks I am depressed, he thinks I will benefit from going to a psych doctor. Perhaps I'll go. Has to be better than being anxious and sad.
I imagine my life being like it used to be. Outdoors and active. And happy. Finding things to look forward to and doing them. I miss that.
Eric has mentioned to me that I am not motivated to do active things anymore. That it makes him not motivated when I am not motivated.
I feel like he doesn't understand how much physical pain I have been in for the past year. I feel like he doesn't have the ability to empathize.
I have lost 15 pounds in the past 6 months. That is a miracle considering the circumstances. Of course, that isn't acknowledged. Only the fact that I should lose 10-20 more pounds in his opinion is mentioned. If I lost 20 pounds, I would weigh what I did when I was 14 years old. F*ing ridiculous.
Sure, I want to lose some weight. I'd like to lower my body fat percentage. I'm not the thinnest girl in the world. Being nagged and being told I have stomach fat is not the way to motivate me. When he had stomach fat I didn't once try and make him feel bad about it.
He later apologized saying its not about weight, but just being healthy. Leading an active life. That it concerns him that I am not motivated most of the time.
He tells me I am not trying to find alternative things that I can do that don't cause me pain. The only thing I can do in moderation is walk. And because it rains, right now it would have to be on the treadmill. Which is booooooooooooring.
The whole thing I learned about making health a lifestyle is keeping it fun. It is not fun to be in a gym on a treadmill. I refuse to force myself to do something so unfurfilling. If its not fun, I am not going to stick with it. I don't believe in being a gym rat. Repetitive exercise; such as being on an eliptical, or lifting weights on an track in an unergonomic way (which is how the machines are built) is not what human bodies were meant to do.
I boulder some, but it does sometimes cause me pain. Or on my more painful days I don't feel like bothering with it. And I don't particularly like the bouldering gym near us because the route setters don't typically plot out routes using the style I like. They want brutal stregnth more than making it possible to get up a route with any sort of technique. It's boring for me. I want to go outside and climb. It's raining. I liked top roping a lot. However, the last time I went I screwed myself over by falling to many damn times and pissed off my nerve via the harness.
I don't have a job and I don't know what I need to do about it. I rally shouldn't have a job where I have to sit all day long. I need something close to home so I don't have to commute far, and something where I can be on my feet more often than not. I've been thinking about applying at Starbucks because I really just want a part time job that gives me health insurance. No one seems to be supportive of this, other than Eric. Sure, I COULD probably do a lot better. Jobs that require me to use my mind though at things I am skilled at also require me to sit down most of the time.
Eric and I had talked about getting married so that he could get health insurance benefits. He now says he doesn't ever want to get married again, and that I 'can't keep a job more than a month.' Which isn't exactly true. I quit my first job, that I had been at 2 years. And it was for valid reasons. They weren't paying me in a timely manner, and they wanted me to pick between my doctor appointments and my job. So I chose my dr. appointments. The second job I quit after a week because it wasn't a good fit for me. And the last job required me to commute for nearly 3 hours a day, which wasn't good for my pain level. Again, no empathy on his part.
I'm just getting really depressed. I don't know what I am doing with myself. I am worried about my future.
I used to love to be outside doing active things. Perhaps I will feel better when the sun comes out again. I felt awesome when I was climbing all the time, and hiking, kayaking.
One thing I have been doing pretty regularly is yoga. It's not enough in Eric's opinion. Which I am starting to resent him for. Pardon me for not wanting to spend 3 hours at the gym with him every time we go.
Some people with my disorder aren't able to do any form of exercise. I just feel lucky that on most days now I can move my positioning on the couch and not be in excruciating pain.
Sometimes I miss the days when I lived by myself in a studio apartment. I had a good paying job, and had lots of money I could play with. I could come home and didn't have someone bitching at me about what I did or didn't do.
I am thinking about taking a weekend vacation to San Diego, where I hear it is warm and sunny.
Because the pain doctor thinks I am depressed, he thinks I will benefit from going to a psych doctor. Perhaps I'll go. Has to be better than being anxious and sad.
I imagine my life being like it used to be. Outdoors and active. And happy. Finding things to look forward to and doing them. I miss that.
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